Thursday, December 22, 2016

The Last Four Months

I used to my life being a bit crazy. I am prone to having challenge after challenge. I honestly believed  I could handle anything. God proved me wrong, though.  Four months ago, my family and I became victims of the Great Flood of 2016.  About 4 feet of water came through our beautiful home. It was the most difficult thing we all had to go through. We didn't only have to rebuild our house; we had to 'rebuild' ourselves.

Stop the Chaos
In the beginning, I was frustrated with God. I honestly wanted to knock the pen out of His hand and crumble up the pages. I wanted the chaos to stop.  My family didn't deserve to be dealing with such a disaster, nobody did. I knew there was a reason, but I didn't have the patience to learn what it was. I just hated seeing my family and boyfriend broken down. It didn't matter how hard I tried. I couldn't keep any of them stable.

A New Canvas
I will never forget the moment I rolled in our gutted house. It was just a couple weeks after the flood. I rolled around and took it all in. I held back the tears until I remembered the first time Todd brought mom and me to see the house in 2011. The house didn't have walls yet. Todd designed the house himself. He was so excited to give us a tour. Seeing it destroyed broke my heart. He worked so hard on it. It wasn't fair. Although, I began to realize that God had given him a new 'canvas.' No artistic mind can stay unchallenged.

Rather be Shoeless
Anyone who knows me knows how much I love shoes. I have about 30 pairs of shoes, including high heels. The first thing I did to prepare for the flood was putting all my shoes and clothes up high.  I regret about only worrying my wardrobe. I really do. I hate myself for not thinking about things like my senior yearbook, award certificates, and baby photos. I can't explain how it felt when I saw those things all soaked and muddy.  It killed me. "I rather be shoeless," I thought. Photos and award certificates aren't replaceable like clothes and shoes are.  I learned my lesson.

Better than Superman
As I mentioned before, the flood happened on the weekend of Brandon and I's first year anniversary. We had planned to have fun, romantic weekend. Unfortunately, Mother Nature decided to be a party pooper....literally. From the beginning, Brandon has done everything he can to make the situation less stressful. He helped keep the generator dry and going. He stayed brave as he walked in water waist deep. He was there when I had my breakdowns. He managed to come still see me every weekend while he dealt with rebuilding his house. He helped me through a rough semester. He is definitely better than Superman. I am beyond grateful to be his girl.

The New Normal
            If my mom had her own super power, it would be transforming chaos to normality. Through it all, my mom managed to keep things as normal as possible. Well, our lives have always been far from normal.  I meant to say she did a great job with helping each one of us adapt to the new normal. While our house was being rebuilt, we stayed at my step-grandmother Pam's house in Baton Rouge. We stayed there for three months. Being misplace for three months was difficult. Mom worked her magic, though. She was always there to get a smile back on our faces.

Saturday Nights
             The flood affected a lot of things. However, it didn't affect my time with my dad at Tiger Stadium.  I have always enjoyed cheering on Tigers with him. We sit right by the locker room, and I get to high-five all the players. Sometimes we get to see celebrities down on the field.  Over the past two years, we have met Jase Robertson, Tom Cruise, Marcus Luttrell, Marty Smith and Patrick Peterson. The best part though is getting to make unforgettable memories with my dad. 

Rise
It took me awhile to trust God again. I was so angry with him. It felt like he was twisting the 'plot' of my 'story' too much. I barely had the strength to face it all. He truly knocked me down. He had a good reason though. On October 7, I finally got a standing wheelchair.  I was beyond excited. I will never forget the moment I stood myself up. I looked at myself in the mirror for a few minutes. Then I realized it. God had to knock me down so I could rise. So I could become stronger than ever before.

New Chair, New Experiences
I can't explain how grateful I am to be an owner of a standing wheelchair. I love having the ability to stand whenever.  I have experienced so many new things. I stood for the national anthem at Tiger Stadium. I have been able to reach all my clothes. My best friend recently got married. I stood alongside her other bridesmaids. Nothing has been more special than having the ability to fully hug my family and friends though. I'm so excited to see what other experiences I might endure with Stella (yes, I have named my chair, I have named all my chairs actually hehe!)

These past four months have been a whirlwind. It wasn't easy to rebuild our lives, but we have become even stronger and closer.  I want to thank everyone who helped us. (Especially, the National Guard, Bernard-Normand Construction, Aunt Amy, and Uncle Marshall, Mawmaw Pam, Mrs. Kathy, Mawmaw Lisa, and Pawpaw Wally). God bless.

P.S. Sorry this was a tear jerker. My eyes leaked several times while I was typing this.


Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Great flood of 2016


Things that I worried about 5 days ago:
Which outfit I am going to wear for 1 year anniversary dinner 
Which jewelry will match it
What color should I paint my nails 
That fact that I'm starting my senior year of college in a week 

Things that I worried about 3 days ago:
The fact that my family and I might have lost everything we owned
The fact that I'm without  my motorized wheelchair and the fact that it might be ruined 
The fact that my whole body is in pain from being in an unsupported wheelchair and having to sleep along the floor
The fact that my dad might be in more pain than me because he has none of his medications for his broken back 
The fact that we might be stranded in Denham Springs for a while 

Things I am worrying about right now:
The fact that I still don't have my wheelchair 
The fact that I can't help either my family or my boyfriend save their belongings and clean out their houses 


My life has truly been turned upside down. I would never think that I would leave my house in a boat. I would never think my family and I would be dealing with the lost of our beautiful home. But, like the weather, life is completely unpredictable.  There are no words to describe how I truly feeling right now. All that I can say is I'm grateful that my family, boyfriend, and I are alive and well. It was a devastating experience for all of us, but it strengthened us. I pray that everyone else in the Louisiana is safe and well. I plan to write about my experience  more in depth this weekend. God bless

Monday, May 16, 2016

Fearless

"Not all girls are made of sugar and spice and everything things nice, some girls are made of adventure, brains, and no fear"

Since I was little, I have always  love being adventurous and trying thrilling things. In February, I got to go skiing in Beaver Creek, Colorado with my family. I skiied before in Colorado when I was 12. I have to say that getting back on the slopes was little nerveracking., Once I did my first run, I completely let go and enjoy it. My instructor was amazing. He brought me to the blue trails which were a little harder slopes. I loved the challenge. I did great. I only fell a couple of times. Hehe! It was an amazing experience.  
Mom and I 


 Brandon was able to come too. 
It was our first flight / trip together. 


Being in love can be thrilling also.  I mean  every minute with Brandon is so breathtaking. I know it sounds cliche but it is true.  I didn't think I could smile this much. He is beyond amazing. We make a year in August. 

On the education front, I did pretty well this semester. I got a 3.5 GPA. I also improved my skills as a poet and fiction writer. 

Whatever life brings, I will always be fearless.